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CreamPuff2021
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Posted: Tue Dec 05, 2006 @ 03:59am

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	Change the World I want to make a difference, I'm just not sure how to go about doing it..... Most people would say donate, volunteer, etc...... But I don't think that's just it There's more to it than that.... not that those aren't good solutions, but they're too easy and commmonplace... I want an adventure, a challenge, and the ability to see gratitude, not pain on the faces of those that I help.... I'm not sure where to start though The logical place would be the beginning.... but I can't seem to find it I must have left there long ago And I say that I have the strength to keep going... but I'm not sure if I do right now I'm so tired.... Tired of everything.... I just want to get away... but I know I can't... I have a race to run... A race that I can't get out of and that I feel like I'll never win.... I'd love to feel good about just running the race, but it's zapping so much of my energy that I don't know how to deal with it all.... One day at a time I guess.... I just wish there was something to look forward to tomorrow.....

Posted: Thu Nov 16, 2006 @ 03:04am

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	Endless Frustrations OMG! screams from the roof.... screaming and screaming... the frustration flowing out.. she continues to scream even when the tears start flowing... but after a while the screaming stops and she just lets the ocean out.... I am so tired right now. I'm tired of it all. There are so many ways out and I don't want any of them. The way I want has been barred from me stares at the wall in pure unaltered hatred I can't stand it anymore.... I want a solution and I want it now! Being an adult of convenience sucks You only think you have freedoms.... you have nothing nothing is guaranteed..... nothing.... life just pisses me off lately...

CreamPuff2021
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Posted: Wed Nov 08, 2006 @ 04:48am

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	Tired.... sigh I'm tired of the right thing to do being the one that hurts the most ..... that when I'm happy no one else is ..... and that in order for the rest of the world to be happy I have to be miserable.. ..... it's always been this way and I really don't see it changing... maybe it's just me maybe i've just chosen this for myself..... I just wish for once I could be happy along with everyone else...

Posted: Wed Oct 18, 2006 @ 02:15am

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	Endless Highways When I got in the car today to drive home, I didn't want to stop driving.... It's not that I didn't want to go home, it's just that I wanted to keep driving On to new places, new futures, new pasts To keep what I had and get a look of what I'm supposed to get.... Life's been confusing lately,.... I'm not sure of much anymore except of who I am and what makes me happy I just wanted to drive there for a moment and listen to the music watch everyone else out there driving and trying to get where they're going Maybe it's because I don't know, that I want to keep going, even though part of me is afraid of finding out..... For now I just want to drive on, to New York, to California, to London, Hong Kong, Anywhere! I just don't want to stay still and wait anymore.... I want to do something and get away...... escape from that which I seem to dread the most ...... I just want a moment to be..... "If I lay here, If I just lay here Would you lie with me And just forget the world I don't quite know how to say how I feel Those three words are said too much They're not enough..." Oh, Good Luck to all those taking their PSAT's tomorrow!

CreamPuff2021
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Posted: Tue Oct 03, 2006 @ 12:58am

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	Falling Faster..... she hurtles faster and faster through the dark air..... the wind whistles by.... then, out of the harsh whistle she hears a comforting sound.... she perks her head in the direction of the noise and listens again..... dumthrumddum...thrumthrum.... it's faint but there... a change then begins to take place in the darkness... her back begins to change until two points sprout from it and form into the dark shapes of wings. She extends them gently and comes to a hanging stop in the air... She listens and hears the noise again..... thumthumthumthum.... She begins to head toward it and notices a light in the darkness below.... it is a fire.. and next to it is the source of the noise.... My little world has been crazy lately, but maybe a new year of life will give me another perspective.... only a month now...

Posted: Mon Aug 28, 2006 @ 05:01am

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	The End "Love in time grows, stagnant" I'm sorry I didn't tell you earlier, and I'm sorry that I'm telling you now. But I need to. I hope it doesn't hurt you. That's never been my intention. Looks down from the cliff she's standing on...... gulps..... turns back with a smirk, just to see your face one last time.... then she leaps into the black abyss to confront whatever might be waiting.... Don't worry, I'll be back again some day..... Maybe fate will be kinder to me then...

CreamPuff2021
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Posted: Mon Aug 21, 2006 @ 04:21am

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	Waiting.... yawns Plugs away at homework while she waits..... always waiting...... yawn................................................. sigh............................a book page is turned...................... and the homework and waiting begin again..........

Posted: Sat Aug 19, 2006 @ 12:00am

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	The AP Forest of No Return... One day you take a car trip to some far off place, that you don't really know of or where it is. But then you enter an immense forest..... The sun goes down and so you decide to stop for the night in a little rest stop that's part of the forest and not far from the road. But while looking for firewood, you get separated from your comrades and wander farther into the heart of the forest till you come upon the swampy banks of a small pond. The waters have a strange fog that seems to obscure your vision, but you could have sworn that just a minute ago you saw a ripple on it's calm surface. You begin to look harder when all of a sudden a girl bursts above the surface on the far side of the bank, gasping for breath. As soon as she appeared she again disappears beneath the water. You wait a few more seconds in anxious anticipation until once again the girl reappears, farther up on the bank and seems to be struggling with an object of some sort. When suddenly she stumbles and falls down in the mud where she curls into a protective ball around the object. You edge cautiously around the pool of water studying the girl the whole time, till suddenly your standing over her and she seems to mumbling.... "I'll ... never... forget..".....

CreamPuff2021
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Posted: Tue Aug 15, 2006 @ 02:21am

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	Breathing Deep Sometimes the world's too hard to bear. The heavyness of being crushes on my lungs and it becomes hard to breath, then some tears begin to form.... and the thing you'd like most is to be able to stop thinking about what you want most.... but it's almost impossible to do. I want to curl up and go to sleep, not that I can escape my thoughts in my dreams... but there they are easier to bear. But instead I'll continue on.... life is hard sometimes, but it goes on... If you're worried don't be.... I've just had a lot to think about lately..

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