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I guess I am being selfish
I am sorry but its not my fault
I want every bit of you
You make me happy and I want to grasp that happiness
And never want it to disappear
Every minute goes by and I don't hear from you
You've become a great part of my life
Your absence kills me little by little
I even delete your messages
So I don't have to stare at your name and cry
I know you're not in your best conditions
Yeah, I'm being selfish...
I remember you used to be so lively
But now you're not anymore
We used to talk a lot but not so much anymore
You always sent those heart-warming texts with feelings
Now its just one-worded and cold
You remembered our Anna in the first months but now
You don't even remember
And I thought I was the one who had a bad memory..?
Sometimes I dont even feel like talking to you
Because I wont hear from you until several hours later?
A day? 2 days?
If you no longer want to talk then say so...
So I don't have to put my heart through this pain..
This is how I feel, I love you but not talking to you makes it seems it was a waste.
Makes me think you're not real and that I'm going crazy..
Maybe I am crazy..