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Another week of feeling completely sick and nauseous. I don't know how much more of this crap I can take. Today was so bad it drove me to the point of leaving work and taking a day off tomorrow to try and recover a bit *bleh*.
ANYWAY, on to what I wanted to talk about. Maybe if I write it down I can try to make a bit more sense of it......Well, I only found out today (Tuesday June 26th, 2007) about the death of Chris Benoit and his wife and son. As soon as I flipped on the tv this morning before work, it was the first headline that happened to pop up. I DROPPED hard onto my bed completely floored. I was in complete disbelief. I always take it REALLY hard when I hear of the death of a wrestler because I grew up watching these people. Ever since I can remember I've watched wrestling. I can't stand to hear when someone that I grew up watching dies. [*On a sentimental sidenote*: it just reminds me of the earlier years when my family actually got along and everyone was happy and we'd all watch it together. Very fond memories for me. Now my family's just a torn up mess....*end of sentimental sidenote*].
Okay, back to my reaction of his death. I was just like, "What the hell?! Who would break into their house and kill the 3 of them?! Especially the poor little boy!" Unfortunately, it seems my initial conclusion was waaaaaaay off. Later on I hear that HE was the one who did it. ..... *long pause....still sinking in......can't type....* Oh my God. I felt so....disappointed and torn and let down. Here's this guy that I grew up watching and cheering on. And he killed his own wife and own little son himself....Okay, so I guess writing it out still isn't helping me make much sense of it 'cause it's not sinking in at all. I really don't know how to feel about it. I know on Facebook the debates have already started up. Should we mourn him as a great Canadian wrestler or absolutely despise him as scum for killing his family? I'm...still very torn and in disbelief. For now, I guess I'll say I mourn him as a wrestler that I watched growing up and cheering on since I was little. However, I don't think I could ever understand or forgive him as a person for killing his wife and young son.
Rest in peace, Benoit family. I hope one day we can all make some kind of sense out of this terrible tragedy.