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When it comes to the relationships here on gaia and in my real life things are super crazy. I didn't really realize how involved I was with people. I have a couple guys on here and a certain special guy at school. I've just recently payed a trip back to my beloved past and it was a hell of a ride. I was in love with a guy I dated on here a super long time ago. And even after we broke up I still so stuck on him. Our relationship is that of the craziest, most awsome rollercoaster you ever ridden in your life. It was to my surprise that once I started getting over him. He just started spilling his feelings out towards me. Sad thing is I like someone here at school. And he's super cool. I mean our relationship is no where close to what me and my rollercoaster friend have, but I realized how exactly alike they are. They both make me laugh, they both have a killer smile, they both are christians, both are giant sweethearts. But the only difference is the guy I like.. he's here. Physically ya know.My other friend isn't. He just doesn't understand the complications of long distance relationships. We've been through it before. It was super hard ya know. It kills me to see all this time. He's been stuck on me as much as I was stuck on him. I only wish I knew how he felt sooner. Then again, I could have told him. But I couldn't really. He always had a gf. Bummer right? Yea. So now he's telling me all the things I felt for him not too long ago. And i'm just like man. It's so hard to believe. Then the guy I like. We're complicated too. When I started liking him. He already had a gf. And he found out how I felt kinda at the wrong time ya know. I wanted to wait till the day maybe when he was single. But course that didn't happen but when he found out he seemed like he felt the same way. He sent me alot of mixed signals. I just recently met his gf at youth group and she's such a sweetheart. But he told me that she's now his ex. So yea they broke up. But i'm still wondering how he feels about me. He's the first guy I told my mom about. So as valentines day approaches i'm just gonna wait. Patiently. See if he makes a move.

Apart from alllll that. The guys here on gaia are over me like a pack of wolves ready to attack a peice of steak. When I get involved I can't get out! They get so attached. All they want to do is cyber. They can't talk to me for one second without them pitching a tent. Seriously grow up. (In the most nicest respectable way I mean) Get a real gf. That's what i'm trying to do. Not get a real gf but a bf. It's so much better. So much more meaningful. Eventually gaia will be the way its supposed to be. Gaia is supposed to be fun. Who knew so much drama comes along with it?
I do now.