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 Posted: Sat Jan 26, 2013 8:13 pm
I've struggled with depression and anxiety ever since I was very very little. I'm much better than I used to be, but I keep sliding back lately. I never admitted to anyone how close I was to killing myself around a year ago. I never actively thought about it at the time, but thinking back on it, it would have been inevitable if things had continued how they were. I remember feeling so hopeless and scared about everything. Eventually I would have decided it was just too much. Or too little I guess. The loneliness of it is unbearable at times. I find that I would do almost anything if someone would just give me some attention, show a little caring. The attention is like standing in a sun beam. The longer you spend in the dark, the brighter, warmer, and more dazzling it seems when you catch a glimpse of light. It makes me do really stupid things sometimes. I hadn't realized how much better I had gotten until I slid back.
I guess I came into this forum for some support. Or maybe to just get it off my chest for a little bit.
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Posted: Sat Jan 26, 2013 8:28 pm
I know exactly how you feel. I have been depressed since i was eight years old. i know that feeling that you are having right now it alost like a empty feeling, right? its like you cant help the thought, you just think that maybe you would be better off. Its almost like you feel alone even when you know they're plenty of people that love you. Sometimes you just have the erge to let all the pain go. And its okay to ven things, its healthy. If you keep things bottled up for to long then there is going to be a day went to finally just explode. I dont know if what i said is helpful but i just wanted you to know that your not alone and that you could talk o me if you wnt to vent or something^^
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Posted: Sun Jan 27, 2013 8:05 am
I'm going to second everything Kittycat said. Sometimes all that's needed is to blow off steam. It's often not that easy, but it's not a bad place to start. And if you ever feel like you need someone else to talk to, you can message me, as well.
I'm glad that you're doing better than you were before, even if it's just by a little bit. Relapsing seems like it can be impossible to avoid. It certainly is for me, anyway. Stay strong. Remember, you never need to go through things alone. Whether it's us or someone else you trust, it's okay to ask for a little bit of help when you aren't feeling well.
Someone will always be here if you need anything.
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Posted: Mon Jan 28, 2013 6:58 am
The irony of suffering with chronic depression (Mine started around the age of 10 or so, and I'm 34 now) is that you feel so completely alone. And yet millions of others are fighting the same battle. Its just so easy to drown in the feelings, and forget that you are NOT alone. I'm very glad to know that people have found a refuge here, and a safe place to talk. I may not be here frequently, but I will make it a point to be here more often, knowing that there are people here.
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Whisper the Lightbringer Captain
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