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Okay so it happened a few weeks ago, but i was getting help with my depression and it was actually going pretty well. I felt like i was getting a lot of things off my chest and getting some support and answers, but after awhile i really started to hate myself more than before. I felt like i was weak for having to share my feelings with someone i mean i've been handling them by myself for so long and not only that, but... I dont know really how to explain it. I guess when i started to feel better (maybe it was all in my head that i was getting better idk) i felt as though i was losing a part of me. It was as though depression has such a hold on me that i feel as though it's a part of me and if i let it go and move on i'm losing a piece of myself and that started to worry me, so i stopped seeing my consular. I'm just not sure if it's normal to feel this way..
For what a
very unprofessional opinion is worth to you, I don't think it's necessarily abnormal to feel that way. When anything is a part of you for so long, good or bad, it's going to take some time to adjust to it not being there. There's not many exceptions to that I can think of, and I don't think depression would be one of them anyway. It's quite literally a part of your being, after all.
Is it possible the two points you made are related? Sub-consciously, maybe you're calling yourself weak because you're not entirely sure if you want your familiar depression to be gone. Or maybe I'm an idiot who doesn't understand how depression works.
Either way, I think it's a fairly normal thing to feel that way while dealing and recovering from something like depression. I also think it might be a sign that you're making good progress at dealing with it. With that said, if you're able to, I think it might be good to go back to your counselor, too. If talking with them helped you out that much, then they might be able to keep helping. Tell them what you posted here, too. They could certainly help you out with it more than I am, or at least help you to decide of counseling is still the way to go or not.
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