Element_Nymph
I've been depressed for about 4 1/2 years and i have been cutting from the very beginning, so equally 4 1/2 years. it has been on and off though, i don't get triggers very easily, but if something traumatic sets me off i will. lately i have been very depressed and thinking of suicide. i don't exactly want to, I've just been thinking about the subject in general. i used to talk to my ex boyfriend about it, because we remained friends and he's going through something similar, but lately he also has been pushing me away and i feel helpless.
i guess i'm just looking for opinions, not necessarily encouragement.
i guess i'm just looking for opinions, not necessarily encouragement.
First off, you are not alone. Never think you are. There are people more than willing to help you through what you're dealing with. For whatever reason your friend is keeping distant (I really hope he's okay too), that doesn't mean there aren't others to support you. I'm not particularly knowledgeable about depression past the surface, but you can message me anytime, okay? (Or, of course, post here in the guild).
May I ask what you mean by opinions instead of encouragement? I feel like I might have violated that rule already. Very sorry if I have.
The prospect of suicide terrifies me. I have a friend that talks about it more often than I could ever be comfortable with, and there's an indescribable pain anytime I even think of losing her, especially to suicide.
I don't want you to feel like suicide is ever the answer. If there's anything I can do, I'm always here, but I strongly urge you also to remember there are crises hotlines available. No matter how uncomfortable you are talking to others, if you have no one else around you that can help, and you're feeling at your worst, please, please use one of those hotlines.
