Element_Nymph
Just as a previous member has posted: i want to take of the mask. everyone knows me as an energetic super happy person all the time, and i'm sick of it. i feel so fake every single day. i just want to crawl in a corner.
another thing, i am also really terrible at revealing my feelings to people. i feel like since i've held it inside for so long i'm afraid to feel venerable. i'm afraid to open to people. i don't want people to know, but also i want them to know i'm suffering. i don't know what to do anymore.
I know this isn't something easy to do, not even close, but I went through something similar to that. Build a wall up so high, and it becomes difficult to even want to let anyone in.
If it would help at all, my advice would be to start with a single person. Decide who the one person is you feel like you can trust the most. Pull them aside, and take your mask off.
If they're a
true friend, they're going to stick by you. Then use the strength that you get from them to tell the rest of the world. If anyone leaves after you show them who you really are, then I don't think they were friends you wanted in the first place.
How simple it is to say, isn't it?
I think having support would be the best possible thing in the world for you right now. Someone who knows who you really are can make everything so much brighter.