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It's good to have people who care about you. I was reading over my sister's journals, and I remembered why I love her. She's not afraid to speak her mind, or stand up for herself.

There's this guy at our school, who kept harrasing me, well, he came over to me while she was over there, and I really think she was about to fight him. Not for me, because he was messing with her. I'm really upset though, because she said she kill her mother before she'd kill her girlfriend(yes she's a lesbian). So it makes me think, would she do that to me. If she had to choose between me and Cara, (Her girlfriend, my sister is named Cara too though), would she choose Cara? Because it seems like she would. I'm not saying she doesn't care. Actually I don't know if she does.. but I don't know. She's known me since 2nd grade(We're not biologically related) And she just met her girlfriend like last year or around that time. They haven't been together that long. How can you tell if it's a true relationship, in that short amount of time? And it doesn't help that it's a long distance relationship. I'm not implying anything, but I just don't want her to get hurt.

I feel so weak. I feel like now I can't survive without her now. I cry everytime we get into a fight. After we do, I feel really guilty, like she'll hate me forever even though deep in my heart, I know it's a normal routine.

Okay, now I'm going to stop that rant, I think I bored a few people. Sorry. Ok, my cousins, also hate my sister. They don't like her because she is a lesbian.

I want to run and hide
I want to run and hide from the world
I can't survive
I can't survive in this world alone