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It rained again today. I love the rain...And I needed it. I felt so crummy, so...dark. I'd lashed out at people here, and it wasn't their fault. It never was, and never will be. I can't believe I did that! *buries head in hands* I was so stupid! So weak! So out of control! I never lose my control like that! Never! The last time I lost it that bad and began crying, I ended up in a hospital fo attempted suicide! *shudder* And I still can't believe I did THAT. I was so stupid! I nearly killed myself over a temporary problem, that was solved so easily...! And then, this time, I took it out on the people I'd like to call 'friend'. But like they'd want to be my friend now...? *snort* Doubt it. Maybe. My friends here keep telling me that I'm not as bad as I think I am...Maybe they're right. No. No-they ARE right. I just need to believe it. I WILL believe it! I WILL!