Okay, I have this friend, Amanda, and about six months ago she dated this guy, Matt. I became really, really good friends with Matt, but then he broke up with Amanda. It wasn't that he cheated on her, or anything like that. He was a good boyfriend, he simply fell out of love. Since then, Amanda and Matt haven't talked. Matt and I have, but privately, over the phone or through Myspace messages.
Amanda has a horrible temper, and she gets a bit jealous so we decided it was best that she didn't know we were still friends. Last night though, a mutual friend of ours played guitar at a coffee house. It was the first time Matt and Amanda has been in the same room since the break-up. When he walked in, she tensed up and so did I, only for different reasons.
He kind of waved to her, she said hi back, and the rest of the night was spent with me sending him glances and short smiles and waves when she looked away, and vice versa.
I hadn't seen him in six months, and it was so painfully hard not to run over and give him a hug. I miss him so, so much.
I hate situations like this. I really do. It makes me so frusterated that the lives and choices and relationships of other people have such an influence in what I can and cannot do.
snarry · Sun Aug 12, 2007 @ 08:56pm · 0 Comments |