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I just don't know
Why things change the way they do
What once brought me joy
Now only brings me unrest

What good is an escape
If your escape turns into a second prison
When your friends seem so far
No matter how hard you pull at their sleeves

I look at you, but something's changed
Whether it's you or me, I can't tell
But it's obvious by the way you look at me
That no matter who changed
It's the other that looks so much different

Memories fade
I didn't expect ours to seem so long ago
But now it seems like yesterday was years past
That today is some new reality
And it makes me want to cry to see us so changed

I rack my mind pondering
What did I do wrong?
I don't know you anymore
And you don't know me

Why can't I be myself anymore?
Why do I have to be like someone else?
Why am I not good enough anymore?
Why don't you just shut up and listen?!

I don't care anymore
About any of it
I just want my friends back
I want to be able to laugh

I want to be able to look at you
And smile sincerely
Call me emo, depressing, whatever
I'm just the only one who even realizes
That the me you remember is just a me you wish you knew

I am who I've always been
The I who you knew, may have been distorted in your mind
Because you haven't talked to me, really talked to me
You just talk...and talk...and talk...

When will it be my turn?
Was I just a tool?
To be loved and then cast aside when something better came?
I care unconditionally

I wonder, can the same be said about you anymore?