Having a Breakdown and being emo..
...Im scared of living.Im having a breakdown/meltdown, whatever you want to say, I dont care anymore. When I get stressed out I think a lot, and whenever I think I realize how pathetic my life is and thus leading to my depression. I let my fears control me. 'With all good comes bad' and I actually had a really good day today but now...lets just say it got very bad. I love nothing, I probably will never love anyone, so honestly I dont see the point.I dont know what Im talking about..Im just an idiot. I just feel so alone, and honestly Im tired of being alone. My friends havent called in a month and I so sick of trying to convince myself that they were just busy. Im so scared I did something to make them hate me. Im so sorry everyone that I write such depressing s**t, this is just how I let my feelings and thoughts out. Anyway Im just sorry for being me. I hate everyone and everything, but most of all I hate myself. Im just gonna go get my razors and my stuffed animals and sleep(my stuffed animals are the only ones who really care and listen)....Wow I love how the blood droplets look on my skin, its wonderful and now Im calm again. Im sorry if I made anyone sad or mad or whatever , Im just sorry for everything.
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