Okay, so this guy I was talking about last time. When we dated, we were close, but not as close as we are now. I love him so much, sometimes I'm about to cry and all that starts me is a simple love song or a couple being together. I know he loves me and my friend finds it weird that only 5 seconds away we miss each other like it has been 1,000 years. My heart nearly stops when I see he is on and when I talk to him, it feels like I'm about to melt into a puddle of Stephy. If it was humanly possible, God knows I would. My life right now is a living hell and when he is talking to me it feels like the rest of the word doesn't matter anymore, it feels like the world isn't even the world anymore. I could never handle it if I lost him and I'm a jealous freak when he has a girlfriend. I know I should be happy but I feel as though I lost any chance in getting him back. I feel bad when she breaks his heart or makes him lose trust in any girl around him, but when he loves her and she loves him, I feel like I lost him, and if that ever happened, there would be no chance for another guy in for the rest of my life. Why do I feel this why, why must I feel this why and why can't I feel this way about another guy?
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