What did i do to deserve this? It makes me sick the pain is back but ten times worst now, I don't believe in this word i wish i can be with you, but you rather have him you don't love me, but i love you. Why cant you see I'm willing to die for you, yet you don't love me. Cant you see my heart loves you what do you want me to do? Now my heart is off beat its hard for me to sleep each night...I cry wishing I died but thoughts of not seeing your eyes keeps me away from the knife but each day Pieces of my heart just fades away into the oblivion with your name on each piece. I wish i can just be in peace, but your not here where is the voice i love to hear it seems like it just dissappeard, but its not its with me. It's meant for him and not for me looks like we weren't meant to be and now the word love is so unclear to me.
What do you want me to do? Don't you know how much i love you why can't you just be with me! Don't you know my heart is losing beats cause your not here with me...can't you just come to me so my heart regains its beat your everything to me my heart also agrees but yet you choose him over me...why can't you love me i promise to keep you happy but how can i if you have no feelings for me i know there are other fishes in the sea but i feel like there is only one for me. I have no feelings for them i only have feelings for you! My heart cries for you!, but you and i will never be because you don't love me and now i feel like theres nothing left for me.
My heart is bleeding again its like one drop turns to ten heartbreaks...Man this is so intense the beats of my heart is slowly stopping i can see it crying its like whatever i do it only wants you it says you are its cure but the feelings we have for each other are unsure looks like i can't give it the cure cause you don't love me now my heart increasingly bleeds now i can barely sleep the sound of it crying makes me want to use the knife but i want to see your eyes so i have to stay away from it damn the tears of my heart makes me sick i need you to cure my heart but you rather have his heart...I'm drowning in tears and blood it is enough to flood;well looks like i have to live with this never-ending pain i feel like there is nothing good to gain now i have to pretend till happiness comes back again...
Pretend?
