The weirdest thing happened last night...
I was lying in my bed, trying to sleep around 11:58, and all of a sudden, this blinding flash surges through my room. I freak out, of course, and pull the covers up to my eyes, start blushing, and begin to cry-- I thought it was a camera, and someone was watching me sleep. So I'm lying there, kinda whimpering, thinking someone is watching me..
And then, right where I'm staring is the center point of the next flash (around 12:02). I'm about to pee my pants at this point, and I'm bawling, and my face is so red.. So I just lay there some more and wait for the next flash.
It finally flashes, and I jump up to turn on the lights to see what the heck it is... And a firefly is on my ceiling. I couldn't have felt more stupid than to see a lightning bug glow there...
It was pretty funny.
And the crappiest thing happened..! I was so totally pumped about going to the nursing home today, and I'm all spiffed up and purdy and ready to go, and mom calls and goes, "Alysha doesn't want to go, so I'm not gonna get you." I swear, stuff like that makes me want to pound my sister. I'm sooooooo sick of her ruining my life. I was here first, I should have more attention than her. I've performed on stage numerous times, I've modeled before, I'm the oldest, I have ten times more issues with my life than her, and yet everyone still manages to make me feel like the bland, boring one. No matter what I do, I'll never be as attractive and wonderful as her. And I hate it. Someday, everyone will be begging me to hang out with them, but ooooooh no, only now that Alysha fails will they come to obsess over me. I'll make it. I'll make it big, and I'll make everyone want to be like me or be around me.
And when that day comes.. Who will I deem worthy to be at my side?
-Nicole
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I see you're going through a phase marked with sibling rivalry. I remember back in the day, when that was a case with my younger brother and me. I think we eventually outgrew that sibling rivalry.
In any case, things always change. I think you're in your early teens, and once you grow up, you're going to be a very different person in a few years. Then, people are going to start to treat you differently, as they should. I also assume that you sister is older than you. If that is the case, once you grow a little older, that age difference is going to be worthless, yet it would have defined your personality as you were growing up.
I know... I've been there.
Good Luck!