someti,es when i think about my past i start thinking of everything i wish i could take back like all the lies i tell i think im starting to realize how much its affected my life because i am a compolsive liar....... it started off as the small things lieing about stuff and now its like my whole life is a lie nothing i say is true i wanna go back or tell everyone the truth about me but i cant because how would you feel if you found out everything or alot of the things you know about your close friend all was a lie i cant help it, even when i try to tell the truth a lie comes out and then i get so into to it and tell the sae story lies all the time that it just seems like a real memory and i dont know what to do i hate it some people dont even know the real me but i cant do anything i know i can stop making up new lies but i need help getting rid of the old ones but i cant do it there is no way i can do it because i dont wanna lose everyone and thing i have becuase when i think about it i know why i did it all my life ive been known as a loser and ive always wanted to be liked and then when i moved to a new place no one knew about me they didnt have a clue about my past and it wa slike i wanted to look cool look good not be a loser so in saying things i thought would make me look cool i ended up looking kinda trashy and stuff and now most people dont know the full truth about something because when it was aprtly true well i exagerated it to make it look better i wish i didnt feel the need to lie and make myself look better but i do so thats why i think im a ompolsive liar
love or hate me as i am sissi
yusukes_bed_slut · Fri Oct 29, 2004 @ 12:19am · 0 Comments |