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I am in love with Ferretfan1 and yet cant see her. I been trying my best but none of luck to me yet. I wish to see her, but I cant without money or a job. I feel depressed about it everyday. I feel so unworthy. I might try to make ideas to sell maybe. I am good at that, but that actually happening is almost nnone with my luck. Sometimes i look at myself and see nothing and then sometime i see myself to be more then anyone else but her. Because I think of ideas, even impossable ones and sometime that makes me look insane. I worry everyday that I will lose her..she was the only one that understands me. Maybe she dont but i tend to believe she does. I love her. If i could i would sell all my stuff just to be with her. I wish to be with her forever..but the last time i said that bout someone bad things happened. I never know what will happen, maybe this is the way things should be. Maybe not.