I nearly forgot all these painful memories. In a way, it's a blessing for me. Who would want to re-live pain anyway? Not me... I'd love to be free.
Some things improved but other things have fell One thing hasn't ever budged though My jealousy over someone having the guy/gal of their dreams And my wish to be with Levi and love him so.
My feelings wander from JOhn to Jaimes and back again But never changes the desire of Levi ;] It's been nearly a year... the longest I've liked anyone But how so long? Is he the one, O why?
Encouraged to go out with Jaimes or John Discouraged to go out with Levi particularly by his cousin Enaj... why? It makes me wonder if he is afraid Or its really true that I have no chance with him.
It seems Enaj thinks he knows everything. But I KNOW that's wrong. How you ask? Well he figures that his Mom is a b***h. The way I see it, its just fatherless troubles and husbandless issues. He figures that hanging with Loseli as much as possible before she moves will sooth the itch.
Obesity's evils catch Enaj so he gives attitude... he's disrespected Levi. I'd say thats pretty bad. Levi doesn't want anything to do with Naj. "Let him figure it out on his own" he says. Most good things to Enaj is now a mirage.
I won't confront Enaj about this because he'll beat me down. Not with his fists but with his words. I adapt pretty fast and once I do, I see a person's flaws after all that time I thought they were perfect. MY mind flies on wings of a flock of birds.
That is why I'm smart enough to make most of my choices good. That is why I'm smart enough to go to someone when I know I need help. That is why I'm smart enough to observe people and did what I could. That is why I'm smart enough to find a solution to untie myself from the tangled kelp.
Here is where I vent, and speak of experiences to help others out. I'm no better than anyone else, I just know my way around a fray. Please don't think of me low or high... but just another person beside you. Come with me to wash the bad tidings away.
Innocent Syko · Thu May 15, 2008 @ 12:11am · 0 Comments |