poem time
Why?
Why do I keep on living,
If nothing is ever going to change?
I hate myself,
For the things I can’t change.
I hate myself,
For the things I’m too afraid to change.
I want to be like everyone else.
But I can’t be like everyone else.
Why is it so hard?
Just to be like other,
To be normal.
I want to be loved like everyone else.
But I want to still be me,
And still be loved like everyone else.
To be loved for being me,
And only me.
I’m afraid to be out there,
Out in the crowd.
I’m afraid they think I’m weird,
And shun me.
Would they think I’m cool?
Or would I be just there tool?
Would they accept me, for me?
Or would they make me into what they want me to be?
No one will understand me,
If I ever let them see the true me.
I’m afraid to let them see the true me,
I’m afraid they wouldn’t understand.
No one knows who I really am,
And that fine by me.
Because if they never know,
They can never reject me,
For being my true self.
So I will keep on hide it,
Never showing my true feelings.
Crying all alone,
By myself with no one else around.
Wishing things where different,
Wishing I could be different.
Wishing I could be normal,
Just like everyone else.
I know I’m different,
They know I’m different.
They just never know how different.
If they did…
I’ll never be able to go on.
I bleed if you cut me,
I cry if you hurt me,
I bruise if you hit me,
I’m the same as you…
But I think differently,
I see the world throw different eyes.
Eyes you can never understand,
Eyes you would never try to undstand.
I’ll lock myself up,
And let it all out.
Then I see you again in the mourning,
Acting like nothing happened.
Acting like I am just like you,
I wont let you see my inner self.
I wont let you know I’m crying inside,
Because I’m not worth it.
I’m not going to trouble anyone,
Because of me.
I keep on living this life of lies,
I keep on acting like there nothing wrong,
Because that’s the only way to keep on living.
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