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I'm going to be drawing more often and posting less, of course I say that with some hessitation, as an interesting thread might come along and change my mind, but it's doubtful considering the trend of stupidity running rampant through all of Gaia right now. I'm somewhat sad, because my friend slinger is leaving the other forum we both post at, and I consider him a good friend. Plus he didn't even bother to tell me bye, and I'm wondering why.

I have, it seems, no motivation to finish anything as of late, and even less motivation to start things. I need some sort of inspiration to jog my creative spirits, and I'm coming up short. Hopefully the thread I made in AnimeZen will spark some ideas for me. They might not like it, but I may combine some characters they create, or alter them drastically even, but it's just the way my mind works, or doesn't depending on how you look at it.

The poetry well I was drinking from has dried up, and my inability to find someone decent to RP fights with is grating on my nerves as well. I'm dubbed with the task of finding jobs for anther thread, though I'm afraid my friends there will be quite let down as I have no clue what to do with my own time, much less solve that problem for others. I guess I just prefer to RP fights moreso than friendships with people, not sure why exactly, I guess I'm so busy being nice irl that it's fun to really kick the snot out of someone every so often. That's why Atier held my attention for so long. I was able to fight someone almost daily, and when that ended, so did my interest in it.

This journal is somewhat bothersome to me, as I enjoy writing down my thoughts, but despise being judged based on them. If anyone reads too much into my ramblings, I hope they have sense enough to know that nothing written here is directed at anyone in a negative fashion, but merely an outlet for my frustrations, that I don't feel necessary to keep private, trusting my friends to realize they can do the same without offending me.