I'm in a better mood i still haven't moved everything in or rented the trunk in fact i spent 95$ because i locked myself out of the house- goodbye truck rental money. why am i in such a good mood? i dunno.
could be that one of my guy friends and i are talking, again. see he shut me out completely like six months ago. which i'm not going to lie hurt a lot, worse pain i've felt since my friend Nathan died. yea i get close to my friends and it hurts when they say they hate me and when they stop talking. even when we would see each other at friends houses he wouldn't even say hi. he says that his ex said that i was talking about them. - i only asked his mom if they had moved in, something i was told i was going to read him the riot act if he was. we were staying out til 2, 3 am talking and if he was moving in with another girl then that wouldn't have been cool. that is the only thing that i ever said about them.- well it looks like they are broken up, which i'm sorry i wish they haddn't if only the fact she made him happy. but on the other hand if she felt threatened by his and my relationship then she isn't the right one for him. our relationship is a simple one. we met at work, i bugged him until he talked to me- not hard when i'd be over in dish trying to get them caught up while waiting on paperwork i had to get before being able to finish my job...- so i'd just start talking. i think he knows more about me than anyone else, other than my best friends. he got comfortable around me and we hung out. yes i'll admit i had feelings for him at one time, now we're just friends. thats it. i don't want him in any other way, which i think 'porkchop' thought i did.
okay so it was mean but that was the code name we gave her. but her table manners were awful- sorry i know i'm not perfect but at least i chew my food before going in for another bite. plus my folks taught me not to talk with my mouth full.- i didn't give her the name i just went along with it. maybe that's why she hated me so much? i just don't get it. i don't care if my boyfriend has female friends, goes out with the boys, or the girls. i trust him to come home to me- or at least not go home with another. why can't most girls be like that? why do they have to break up a friendship over their insecurities? i mean if i had wanted to take him away i would have, but i didn't want him so i let him be.
oh one more thing i have no idea what had been said. i told him that. i asked him why he just didn't ask me before. he still hasn't given me an answer. i think he really wanted me to have been the one saying all the dirt. its sick but i think he wanted me to be the reason he and she broke up. if only so he could blame someone other than her. i mean she really did a number on him. if i had been the one talking the dirt then he could have at least yelled at me, maybe we would have even fought. plus he was wrong about the rumour mill so... lol i don't know why i'm putting all this down.
Anywho he came up and talked to me at a friends shindig (i love that word sometimes). surprized the heck out of the group i was talking with. some of them knew what was going on, and were almost ready to cuss him up one side and down the other. i just smiled said hi, and then went back to the conversation we were having. he just kinda asks if he could talk to me, he's polite like that. domokun I just went around tot he back with him and he told me that him and 'porkchop' broke up. then he asked me why i said all those things. was i jealous? we had decided that we wouldn't workk out so why should i be jealous. - he didn't say it mean or anything. he was just drinking a bit, which probably made him bolder. so we talked out on the backsteps for a good hour. and if i didn't like his ex before i really didn't want to see her that night. i was a little intoxicated myself. thankfully she really has no ties with our group of friends so buh-bye. dramallama
sorry for being long winded but i couldn't stop the story. its full of mistakes and all but its the reason i'm happy. well part of the reason. i forgot how much i missed hearing his laugh. i mean the guy i'm seeing has a great laugh, all my friends have great laughs- and yea i like to hear them all. but you don't know what you miss until it goes, then you realize how speacial it is once you have it back in your life. well thanks.
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