So she's gone. 17 and all full of herself and thinking she knows it all. Im worried about her, but thankful that she seems to have the confidence to move on, maybe even a little sad that she feels she doesn't need me anymore, heck, I need her....
As a mother, all of this races through my mind on the first morning after she has left. I think about all of the awful things that I experienced after leaving home and want to protect her from those things. I think about the terrible existance that my sister must have lived in the year before she took her own life and I want to protect her from that. I guess I just want to build a little box and put her in it to keep her safe.
I think that I looked forward to this day when the kids were little, wishing they were older so I could have my freedom. I guess I didn't expect that when they got older and I did get some freedom to ride, they would want their freedom as well.
I will try to write happier thoughts in the future. Today I am just a little down.
Today I am thankful for
1. Having enough food to feed my family everyday
2. Having a roof over our heads that I feel secure with
3. Having great kids
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