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I had an epiphany, today... Or just now, rather... It suddenly came to me that, while I may have some measure of talent, I have no real, practical talent to speak of... I can write, but not well enough to publish. I have computer skills, but they're mediocre at best. I can draw, but nowhere near enough to display in public. I'm poor, so I can't afford basic programs to create stuff then sell it (anywhere!). I can't play an instrument. I can't play any sports really that well, except for baseball. I'm decent in math and science, but not smart enough to publish any work that wouldn't get laughed at, or hasn't already been published. I'm pretty good at billiards, but not enough so to get sponsored. This is starting to sound like a woe is me entry, but you know what, I'm venting!! Actually I don't really care, because no one reads my journal entries or anything. The only thing I've got going for me is that I'm moderately strong, relatively smart, and hard working (when there's work to be done). Is that really enough to get by in life? Not really, considering I'm not exactly going ANYWHERE at the moment. Why do I compare myself to others so much? Lack of self-esteem? Feelings of uselessness or inadequacy? Most likely... to both... But does it really matter, because all anyone else can do is say "I'm sorry to hear that..." or "Get over it..." ... Oh yeah, and I'm a pretty decent shot. Woopty do!

"I'm gelling..." - Guy 1
"You're so not gellin'!" - Guy 2
^^^Dr. Scholl's commercial^^^

The Mighty Chimera-san (a.k.a. Jeff-kun)