Today
Today I had a very disturbing dream
Yet it also felt like the air in me was punched away
My dream consisted of myself, a guy I know a bit about & possibly a demon.
I had several roles in my dream.
I was a servant, a student, but what surprised me was that I was also a beautifully respected princess.
The 1st task @ hand was to go & come from school.
I needed help with math problems.
I went to a tutor, but it turned out to be that he needed me to tutor him.
The tutor started to look like the guy that I know a bit about.
His name I know & cannot speak of it.
While I try to help him understand a math problem or two I begin to tire fast.
Don't know why exactly.
I do notice what is happening while I am put to sleep.
The young lad likes me & he loves me.
We both feel it. This is the best thing ever to be known to us both.
He takes me close to himself. He shows his love for me & we are both happy.
We know what must be done now. For he has shown his love for me & I have accepted it to the fullest.
Yet we are suddenly put in a different place with a different situation.
We both are in danger. I most of all.
I am drugged in some way & am extrememly fragile.
There is someone in the darkened places that wants me to stay in the bleakness & darkness.
My love & I are separated for a time.
Once he finds me he presents me to his father.
I thought his father would welcome me, but he did not.
I had to hear & watch this terrible sight.
The sight of his father telling him who he should marry.
My love was a prince & his father was the King. He was attached to his father.
Yet I could not bear to lose him after he has found me & shown me his love for me & I to him.
My love looked to his father, then to me.
He watched as I ran to him. Begging him not to leave me.
My love knew that I had not much strength in me to run let alone walk.
I fell to my knees looking up @ him.
We felt our feelings.
I knew that it was the thing lurking in the shadows impersonating his father.
'Tis why he came running to my aid.
I noticed in his haste & his eyes that he would have continued his plans to marry me even if it were his real father.
We looked @ each other with love & greatfullness for finding one another.
I felt weak again.
My love knew that I needed to cross over to the other side of the countryside.
He spoke to my young sister of a castle or someplace where they had more space & more purple trees.
We ran through tunnels & @ the end of the tunnel were angels waiting to talk to us & tell us to go through the curtains to the side where we knew heaven lied.
I spoke before of playing several roles in this dream. Well in here, I was the person carrying myself, the princess.
I was heavy for myself & exhausted from the travels.
I decided to sit a while.
My love looked around & I started to feel drugged once again.
I noticed it being from just speaking with a strange man.
My love & myself ( the servent) were both trying to tell me that it was all a trick to make me stay in the darkness with the strange man.
We eventually got me to walk to the angels who spoke to us & I woke up. <- _ ->[:tears:]
Yet I know the ending to be very true & not because it always happens that way.
Yes, it ended happily. We walked excitedly to the other side where my love would marry me & we would live like kids truly in love with each other.
Maybe later we would have children. [ confused ????:]
I don't know exactly why I had this dream. Yet I think, I know how. I've heard that , I think, Freud said that our dreams are compiled by our daily lives.
If it is that way, then the guy was in my dream 'cause I was thinking about him during 2-3 or more days. Worried of what might happen or what might not. I believe that I may sitll have feelings for him. Which would explain the love thing & him showing his love the way he did & wanting to marry me/ needing to marry me.
Then I being a student in college it matched with the student thing. also knowing how smart the guy is in math. He could be my tutor or I needed to help him in something.
Then me being a servant to myself. Either from the obvious. That I serve myself food or put in a DVD to watch on my own or buy myself things. Or it could be from a show I've watched last night on channel 13's pbs's "nature" about the ted tailed hawks coming to NY's 5th Ave & central Park. That once the "Pale Male" & "1st Love" mated after 3yrs they've had 3 children & the 1st got lost but was found @ the same time the 2nd one got injured & was carried by a mand that was the 1st person to see & watch the Hawk called "Pale Male".
The Hawks mating must have been the part in my dream where the guy showed his love to me. lol
The marriage part must have been my past hopes to marry the guy & my future hopes to marry the on God choses for me.
The weakness/drugged up parts must have been 'cause when I see a cute/attractive looking / personality guy that i get weak, but not enought to make me completely blind.
lol
The tunnels were dark. Either 'cause my blanket was over my face or I known tunnels to be that way.
The light to be hope for eternity in heaven. Where there's no pain or anything bad.
The angels & the strange man that I know was lurking in the darkened corners of each situation.
The angels must have been for safety/protection knowing they'll help in times of need.
The strange man must have been what I thought to be a demon & evil. Something that isn't good to be near.
Purple trees 'cause I love purple. I know there's got to be a bunch of different colored things in heaven.
Well, that's the end of the interpretation of my dream.
Took the fun outta it, right? [ lol ] [ lol ] [ lol ]
wanted colors for each paragraph but this wak dell thingie that's acting like a mac is not letting me [:crying:]
oh yeah this was in 9/5/05 September Monday 2005
God bless
Mary_Magdalene_forgiven Community Member 
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