someone: did you tell jazlin that im invisible?
dudettnumberone: no
dudettnumberone: i dont tell anyone...
dudettnumberone: no one has to know...
dudettnumberone: knowledge is unneeded
someone: well, now shes pissed at me cuz i "signed off" on her
dudettnumberone: when everyones so ignorant anyhow...
dudettnumberone: ignorance is bliss... why is the world so unhappy?
someone: compared to others
dudettnumberone: i dont get it... i dont get many things....
dudettnumberone: she said that?
dudettnumberone: her problem is not gay...
someone: yes
dudettnumberone: and mines not that serious...
dudettnumberone: nothings ultimately serious...
someone: oh my ******** god!
dudettnumberone: live life in ignorance, for in the end you die anyhow...
dudettnumberone: what.
dudettnumberone: ?
someone: now you are being lil miss depressed speaking inmetaphors confusous say smart a**!
someone: ugh!
someone: i cant stand this
((then he signed off...))
well... that wasn't... very nice. I'm not trying to be like this... I just can't think, and was... throwing out... abstract notions... thoughts... feelings... and no one can help right now... no one can help the blankness go away... it just passes naturally, eventually....
he's being... mean... jasmine brings out the worst in him... and he comes and vents to me... i dont mind.... it just gets annoying... i dont see what he has against her... i like her, but... i see more than most people do, even when dead-tired...
such an a**... have to love him... but... it hurt... i cant help the way i am... and i was supportive, and let him vent... even though i feel like yelling at him for complaining about my friend all the time.... but theyre both friends... just like chan and trevor, who hate each other.... but when i get even a little abstract, he calls me names and leaves...
i dont need this right now... my head hurts... thats not all, but tryping this is making me hurt... too tired.... i just wanted to curl up in a ball and cry... but i cant cry... too empty... so maybe curl up... and sleep... i wanna sleep in arms.... or maybe just be held for a little while... i dont want words... or sympathy... i just want to be held...
but im not going to be.... because people feel weird about holding... so i will... as usual keep it to myself...
and usually... i wouldnt post that.... i quoted him directly... even his s nname... but oh well.. . i dont care... right... now... too tired...
jasmines gonna get mad at him... for that... and he'll think i... posted it to get... back at him... but im not that petty... too tired... i just cant make myself care enough... cant feel enough... blank... i dont try to hurt people... i even hurt myself, trying not to cause others harm... pain... but... oh well... cant care... too tired...
Edit: I changed it so that he will remain anonymous. And... I wasn't mad at him, nor hurt too bad... I just... I dunno anymore. I felt the need to explain to ya'll that I don't hate you, I'm not trying to avoid you in any way... I just can't talk. Too tired... And no, sleeping does not help. Maybe a few dys of it would, but I don't have a few days.
dudettnumberone: no
dudettnumberone: i dont tell anyone...
dudettnumberone: no one has to know...
dudettnumberone: knowledge is unneeded
someone: well, now shes pissed at me cuz i "signed off" on her
dudettnumberone: when everyones so ignorant anyhow...
dudettnumberone: ignorance is bliss... why is the world so unhappy?
someone: compared to others
dudettnumberone: i dont get it... i dont get many things....
dudettnumberone: she said that?
dudettnumberone: her problem is not gay...
someone: yes
dudettnumberone: and mines not that serious...
dudettnumberone: nothings ultimately serious...
someone: oh my ******** god!
dudettnumberone: live life in ignorance, for in the end you die anyhow...
dudettnumberone: what.
dudettnumberone: ?
someone: now you are being lil miss depressed speaking inmetaphors confusous say smart a**!
someone: ugh!
someone: i cant stand this
((then he signed off...))
well... that wasn't... very nice. I'm not trying to be like this... I just can't think, and was... throwing out... abstract notions... thoughts... feelings... and no one can help right now... no one can help the blankness go away... it just passes naturally, eventually....
he's being... mean... jasmine brings out the worst in him... and he comes and vents to me... i dont mind.... it just gets annoying... i dont see what he has against her... i like her, but... i see more than most people do, even when dead-tired...
such an a**... have to love him... but... it hurt... i cant help the way i am... and i was supportive, and let him vent... even though i feel like yelling at him for complaining about my friend all the time.... but theyre both friends... just like chan and trevor, who hate each other.... but when i get even a little abstract, he calls me names and leaves...
i dont need this right now... my head hurts... thats not all, but tryping this is making me hurt... too tired.... i just wanted to curl up in a ball and cry... but i cant cry... too empty... so maybe curl up... and sleep... i wanna sleep in arms.... or maybe just be held for a little while... i dont want words... or sympathy... i just want to be held...
but im not going to be.... because people feel weird about holding... so i will... as usual keep it to myself...
and usually... i wouldnt post that.... i quoted him directly... even his s nname... but oh well.. . i dont care... right... now... too tired...
jasmines gonna get mad at him... for that... and he'll think i... posted it to get... back at him... but im not that petty... too tired... i just cant make myself care enough... cant feel enough... blank... i dont try to hurt people... i even hurt myself, trying not to cause others harm... pain... but... oh well... cant care... too tired...
Edit: I changed it so that he will remain anonymous. And... I wasn't mad at him, nor hurt too bad... I just... I dunno anymore. I felt the need to explain to ya'll that I don't hate you, I'm not trying to avoid you in any way... I just can't talk. Too tired... And no, sleeping does not help. Maybe a few dys of it would, but I don't have a few days.
