So I am glad that no one really reads this so that way I can just totally vent my brains out.
Bree ditched me which is totally typical and I really need to learn to not give my hopes up when she says we are going to hang out or anything when she comes home from school. Yes she is my best friend, but I fell like...shes not...it's hard to explain but just argh...frustration and trying to write what my brain thinks, doesn't work well together >.<
I want a damn baby. I'm sick of everyone telling me that we don't "need" one now, and I'm sick of the ******** lecturing I get. I'm upset, almost to the brink of tears that I'm not pregnant, and starting to believe something is wrong with me and again...the frustration leads to things not making sense.
Sometimes I look at my life and think why can't it be like the fantasy books I read? Why can't it just be perfect, or eventful? Or just something? Why did I have to be cursed with a life that sucks at times? I mean it's not so bad now because of my hubby poo, but like when I was growing up or my friends right now? I feel still whole heartedly that my freinds want nothing to do with me anymore because I am married...really?? thats some gay as s**t and pisses me off
I want to ******** cry and scream all at the same time, I want to punch someone I want to just express something, and hate it that I don't/can't do anything about it.
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK....
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