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another entry... here goes...
life has changed so much since i moved away... my normal routine is i go to skool, get through the day, come home, do the dishes, and go hang with my friends... it's pretty sweet...except that something is missing... i think it's my old friends...
my mom doesnt really notice me that much any more... i wouldnt mind at all, but the only time that she DOES want me around , is to do the ******** dishes... grrrrrr... i hate her/ this wole situation right now... im sick and tired of just freeloading of of jerry... i dont see why my mom cant get a stupid job... she says she's looking 4 one in the paper, but alot of buissnesses dont put ads in the paper... she says there r no jobs here, but i walk into purity, and there's a new girl working there... pisses me off!!!!
it's gettin hella wierd with this whole love hate thing with kaya... i mean we dont HATE eachother, it's just that one day, i like wont even lean on his sholder, and the next he wants me to sit on his lap...hmmmmm... wierd...
skool is gettin harder than ever... not the difficulty of the actual work, just the difficult of me doing it... i did get an A+ though on my book report... and i think i still have an F in english... ******** hate my english teacher and my math teacher...
what irritates me is that i cant really describe this feeling ive been feeling lately... it sorta feels like im floating... like nothing, and anything at all can happen to me at once... it's really really wierd... like....... i cant really even descibe it... it's the strangest sensation ever... and it's been happening alot lately... i feel like i have all the power in the world, yet no power at all... yet it dosent feel like that at all... i cant describe it... and then it'll just go away, just like that...
something that i've been realizing lately, is that i no longer have been showing emotion... i feel like if i do, then i dont know what will happen... like 15 min ago, i felt i was gonna explode, yet i was perfectly still... it was creepy, now that i look back on it...
i feels wierd, saying so much about what ive been feeling lately... i wouldnt be doing this if i wuznt so bored... well, oh well... that's the way it goes...
well, ill talk to you guys later... peace out, live life to it's fullest, and dont be like me... seriously...
sgrbeebuggy911 · Sat Dec 06, 2008 @ 05:10am · 0 Comments |
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