sure.. i'll play along i guess
i'd rather direct my anger at you anyways, since your the source
"soo.. i miss brendan and now i feel like hell and i'm going to either cry or completely flip out.. so yeah, i'm going to go curl up in bed now..
dunno, just don't take being played very well i guess.. especially on top of everything else that's been going on.. "
Hmm.. oh yeah, told you he was playing you, told you a while ago to confront him about it, but you like your rose tinted lenses, plus, you pissed me off on purpose, why the hell did you do that if you were going to miss me?
'"...an it was sweet of you, but unfortunately his mum already knows he smokes, so.. prolly wouldn't of mattered much
though i don't really see why it matters if you're avoiding me and whatnot now =/ "
you shouldn't let people walk all over you, plus, i told you i cared, you just like to tell me that i dont and never believe me, so thats why you can't understand that
"I dunno.. xD
Britt thinks I'm retarded because when I found out Brendan no longer wishes to talk to me, I completely freaked out and bawled my eyes out. Then Corey did this whole thing and she thought I was going to flip out again- but I really just want to kick his a**.. "
yeah.. because corey is a huge douche, i'm not a huge douche
that doesn't seem to be complicated
" why am i on? avoiding me means he's probably not even going to be on.. and even if he is.. he's avoiding me, sooo.. still not going to talk to me.. then if he comes on i'm just going to sit here and not say anything. because he's avoiding me so why on earth would he want me to say anything to him? and then i'll just feel like garbage again when he signs off again
what is that? i care enough about/for you to stick up for you and flip out at some guy when he's an a** to you. buuut not enough to accept your apology (even if it wasn't overly amazing because i'm horrible at apologizing) and stop ignoring you, especially when it seems like we both kinda need eachothers help at the moment? i don't know that he needs mine, but i know i could really use his.. but you can't force people to do stuff they don't want to "
there's a lot wrong with this, 1. i dont randomly log off on you anymore, unless someone is going to read somethnig i didn't want them to see or something like that, you log off when your upset, like i used to.. but again "used to" meaning, dont do that now. plus, your apology for pissing me off on purpose was not acceptable
you feel like garbage after talking to me? well then you know how i feel every day,
you give guilt trips
you dont tell me whats wrong when i ask
you are, in general, a complete b***h now
you aren't on reliably anymore..
i dont feel like making this long as i have to go to work soon, but in short, i dont feel any benefit talking to you anymore, and you just want to be pissed off at me, i dont feel like being the target
"well he did say for the rest of this year so.. maybe he'll talk to me again after the first?
i'm thinking prolly not though, i mean, if he's having such a good time not talking to me, why would he start talking to me again? =/ "
wow.. you can't read.. a new years resolution is that you keep that for the whole year, for all of 2009 i want to avoid you
" i consider it kept bringing her back up if you talked about it, i said oh, we changed the subject, then you went back to talking about her
but alright, i guess i'm wrong
yeh, i'm ******** up, i'll leave you alone then, there's plenty in your life that is without adding me to it too
but apparently shouldn't of even bothered to ask.. guess i should have figured that one "
i said something and then girlfriend... then you got quiet.. why am i explainig this again?
so you seemed upset, so i threw in a few lines about how it was no big deal and that she had asked me out, so its nothing huge
but yes.. your right.. damn.. why did i say about15-20 words about her? what was i thinking? 15-20 words about my girlfriend.. a few hours about douchebag.. hmm..
"go to your friend and ask for forgiveness and support during a time you really need it, really need them. and your answer is "i'll think about it" then "except prolly not.." did they ever really consider you a friend as you did them? couldn't of been too great of friends if they just cast you aside so easily, eh?
'cause it's certianly not like he never took anything out on me or like i never forgave him when he messed up. maybe i just forgave him too quickly because i care about him, missed him, and just wanted things to go back to normal
who knows.. certainly not me anymore.. "
you didn't say you had problems until after i said i wasn't talking to you, dont give me guilt trips when YOU won't talk about your problems
plus, i've needed you too, after D and i was just never able to come around and tell you
s**t, not even after, before and during would have been nice to
so don't give me this bullshit about how i'm not around when you need me, you aren't perfect either
you didn't hear me bitching about it to you though
this is my favorite "great friends"
if a strained friendship that goes back and forth is great, you need to find better friends
i've never put so much effort into a relationship as this, and it still fails
it can't all be my fault
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