Nope. Nothing. Now onto my rant:
The guy I danced with at homecoming, Doug...my crush....completely ignores me in the hall. Every time I see him he gets cuter...and seems to ignore me even more. The last time he looked at me was when I got into a fight and he actually agknowlaged me and hit the other guy. Wow. Though it was nothing really. The other guy was one that kept asking me out and I kept turning him down. I don't like him, he clearly gets violent. Well, after asking me again (third time that day) I told him to go find another goddess, to which he slammed me into a locker and started yelling at me. I cowered, not wanting to get suspended...but I COULD'VE HANDLED HIM!!! And Dougs like...wha...? And I think he recognized me, because he pushed the guy and hit him square across the jaw. My tormentor got suspended, and Doug didn't because it was 'self-defense'. I dunno how that works out. I said thanks and all he said was 'whatever'. I'm sad.
On Runescape: I thought I had a friend...one I could count on, ya know? Yeah...I wish. I was scammed, nothing left, and I'm suprised she actually left me one of my accounts. But I'm not going to let that stop me, I'm going to get it all back...even if that means complaining to good friends who give me crap. ><.
On writing: None of my stories are getting done. I'm going to discontinue 'a teacher and a student' because no one reads it anyway. I started like...4 other original stories (gotta love 5 subject notebooks) and I hate my English teacher. Just had to throw that in there.
On life in general: My self-confidence is slowly shrinking. I've found the only way to express my emotions without getting yelled at or made fun of is to write it in poetry. Sad but true. Doug ignores me. (self confidence: |________________| ) I was stupid enough to get scammed...twice...on runescape. (Self confidence: |____________| ) My English teacher took one of my stories[I was writing it in my free-time] read it, gave it back, and criticized it...tearing it apart peice by peice, saying how professional writing is soooo much better. (self confidence: |____|) And I've pushed away every single friend I have here. (Self confidence: |_| ) So, who wants to push me over the edge?
Crimson Lunarwolf · Sat Oct 29, 2005 @ 05:56am · 3 Comments |