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apparently, im not allowed to have feelings.
apparently, these feelings i am not supposed to have are stupid.
apparently, im just here for everyone to dump their feelings on and then leave.

my feelings may be stupid and they may not have much basis behind them, but they're MY FEELINGS. mine. and i have a reason for feeling them. who cares if they're totally blown out of proportion. i wouldnt feel that way unless i thought i had a reason to.

so dont make me feel stupid when i try to share my feelings with you. it's not something i normally do. it doesnt come easily to me so when i actually try to let you inside my head dont just ******** blow it off like my feelings are stupid. like i have no reason to feel the way i do.

so you know what? i'll just keep my feelings inside like i always do. i'll deal with them in my own way. i'll deal with them how ive always dealt with them in the past. i'll keep them inside because apparently the people i could trust before i cant trust anymore. it wouldnt matter if i thought i had one person to go to when i was sad. one person who would make me feel better no matter what. but i dont have that anymore. and i wont ever again because i am always going to be afraid to let people in now. i took a chance and it hurt me in the end. i dont want to take a chance like that ever again.

im tired of feeling like im not important