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"such a sad thing... the life of Death...for it hurts more when feelings have been numbed.. when your warmth has been devoured by the cold stare of death... when your bones are all that remain of your existence... nothing... nothing is more painful than that... so i ask again.. can you... a feeble demon... actually kill Death itself? I wish you could end my sad existence... but... death is a stranger to me... because I am... Death itself... and everything i knew of... everyone i loved... they have no recollection of me... so that i can take them to the other side without tears... even my mother... she cant even remember... i want to protect her... i want to help her... but... Death is not a kind thing... and the hatred of every soul I reap... the regret and pain of them... is slowly making me forget too... its consuming me... my mermories of being who i am... what my mother had named me... Judas Iscariot... but... Mani is my controller... and she'll do anything to stay alive in this time of plague... my daughter... shall be Julie... and then... then i can pass on...but... do I want to hurt my only daughter so much... her black hair and beautiful green eyes... she,s a mage because of the hex I laid on her when she was still in Mani's womb... she sees what I do... she sees the fire that consumes all life... but... now I can be human... because of the amulet my father gave me... I can take care of her forever... and she can turn the hatred and pain into energy and love... but... she is mortal... and... she'll pass away too... that is why... I , Death wish for the end... because i cant take my life like mortals have done... because the plague doesnt affect me... I wish for an end that can never happen... even when time is over... I'll still be here... waiting for another beginning... So kitto, can your master deal with Death and the Devil?"
its in my story kinda his summary of what has happened over all seven books and the fate that he is cursed with.