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Jordan and I met when school started my Junior year. We had Advanced Women's Choir together. I had been with Crystal since summer. Crystal and I were hiding our relationship from everybody. It was hard because I'd had feelings for her since the sixth grade and when she finally acknowledged her feelings for me, she was afraid. Make no mistake, I loved her very much. But when Amanda introduced me to Jordan my whole world trembled and turned around. I saw her smile just once and then I knew everything I wanted, I wanted to share it with her. She was perfect. It's hard to describe the depth of my feelings. I was an idiot. I stayed with Crystal and every day my feelings for Jordan just got stronger. And then I kissed Jordan and I decided that Crystal and I had to break up because I loved Jordan and even though I loved Crystal, it was too hard to be with someone in secret. She acted like everything was ok. I knew I hurt her. I still regret it to this day.
I continued to court Jordan and we fell into sync so easily. I was never afraid to be with her. She made me happy and her parents liked me and even though my mum hated Jordan, I didn't care. She was beautiful and sweet and caring and she became my world. If all the stars and the sun and moon had ceased to exist, I wouldn't have noticed. All the light I needed was in Jordan's eyes. When I was with her I wanted for nothing. But as life goes, so our relationship ended.