Please note that this started out as a poem but... I don't know if it still is...
An aching urge growing
Like a silent scream
Stuck in my throat
Collapsing from the stress of trying
Holding me back
When I try to jump
The only thing you were ever good for
But maybe that night
I should have died and
You ******** with destiny
The next few months
Would never have haunted me
Like that other night
The beginning of my depression
Thank god you stole nothing
And thank god you gave me so little
Something so small and brittle
I broke it and lost it
Later you made me realize
You gave so much more
Than just a melted rose
You can't understand how I feel
So simple minded
With so little worries
Forcing me to believe things
Attaching yourself to tightly
The only way to freedom
Was to break a heart
I admit I'm cruel
But you tried to make me
what I'm not
Tried to push me
Into things
I knew I didn't like
Children are so stupid though
And I didn't think
There was anyone else
So you couldn't leave
I kept telling myself
Until you came to close
And went to far
Doing things
That made me think
Who really cares?
You? or... him?
He loved my poetry
My voice
My mind
Things you never knew existed
Too busy saying you love me
Too busy saying you need me
It's too bad you had to lie like me
She knows the truth now
She knows how far you've really gone
And how you treat your angels
So I'm done being the evil girl
I've moved on to better
Smarter things
Who love more than just... me
Ciao,
Nessa
I don't think a dedication is needed, you already know who you are. Oh and, if you PM me, IM me, Txt me, or Call me... I'll most likely ignore you. If you threaten any part of my life (including the people in it) I'll do more than just hurt you, and that doesn't have to mean I'll kill you.
Ciao.
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