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What do you think the worst Nightmare is?
I know what it is...the worst nightmare is where everything you want happens. Were the boy you love so much in reality loves you back. In the Nightmare, everything is just the way you want life to be. But see what makes the dream a nightmare isyou wake up and it all disapperes.
I fall asleep using delusions. but I have ran out of them. I can't fall asleep anymore. Last night I tired to go to sleep without letting myself create a delusion and I was up untill 3:30 a.m. I ended up having my delusion that I wasn't alone (I have a pillow that feels like someone is there next to me, I slept with teh pillow on my back so I had the feeling of someone holding me as I had my arms wraped around myself)
I can't feel anymore. I tried to hold my hand over a flame, to burn ...to feel pain but it didn't hurt. I tried to stay outside in the cold with only a short sleve shirt and thin pants. I felt the wind but I was already nnumb, so the cold was wasted. I tried to get feeling in my hands but it didn't work.