Ahem. In other news...the play is coming up and I really want people to come. A chunk of Poly are coming and apparently the people I considered friends aren't. My girlfriend who I am 'on break' with right now can't come. One thinks I'm pissed b/c I was joking around and said no don't come. One is outta state and well ******** this life of mine just keeps getting better. Not to mention I have a nervous breakdown in the middle of math class and Im under the desk in the back crying and scratching at myself seeing and hearing s**t. No one sees me of course and I have to snap myself out of it weeeeeell after the bell.
The only thing that had me smiling was Patrick on Saturday. But now I'm kind of back down again because my friend Maria- something's going on. She walked out of class and disappeared. I'm worried. I don't want anyone else I know to die. I'm tired of the people I consider friends killing themselves or just dropping out of my life without a word. Maybe it's my fault...it always seems to be...
"I thought it would...It always does..." - Cheshire Cat
