Love and Confusion
I started out as a little girl wanting love
Kept in a small box locked up by ball and chain
Sitting under the cherry blossom tree
Daydreaming about that one man loving me
After my grandmother forced marriage
I was waiting for love to come
After sitting under the cherry blossom tree
Realization came to me that love was never there
Second marriage came without thinking
After running away with this almost stranger
I felt as if lifted out of my pit of sadness
The world was right again
Life passed by in a blink
Without realizing what was happening
This marriage is a blossoming cherry poison
Why did I wait so long to speak up?
After my second marriage passed away
I went on with my life
Like I lost nothing
In my store, I kept calm and quiet
When game day came
He showed up
Like snow on Christmas day
Like Portland rain in summer
After sitting under the cherry blossom tree of my dreams
It will never work
Love is not true
It’s time to give myself a break
Hour after hour he continued to spend time with me
Like I really meant something to him
I started to fall for him
Maybe it could work after all
Constant nagging coming from everyone
They said “Don’t run away with strange men”
He said “Run Away to Jacksonville with me”
Third time’s the charm, right?
Jacksonville’s marriage came faster than imagined
Packing and unpacking fell in the same moment
Money in the bank, nice home, loving husband
What more could I ask for?
One day, Indians were moving east
What in the world were they doing?
“Hurricane is a’comin”
“Moving east to avoid it”
Hurricane? A hurricane? How crazy
There be no hurricane in Jacksonville
What a bunch of crazy Indians
Days and days went by without sun
Wind grew more and more aggressive each day
Days went by
When you didn’t even know if it was day or night
Soon after
It was pitch black on the horizon
The wind howling more than ever
Is this what the Indians were warning us about?
Thunder and lightning hits the floor of the world
Flooding water surrounding those of confusion
Screaming and yelling coming from all sides
What do we do? What do we do?!
Packing came quick
Running out the door to continue the safety of ourselves
Miles and miles of running and walking…running and walking
The endless path of hell has finally come to pass my white flag
Finally the madness came to a stop
Houses without roofs and roofs without houses
The dead replacing the living
The feeling of the end of the world
Exhaustion fell on us
Sleep was necessary
We laid down to rest
I went to get a piece of roofing to cover us
I grabbed it from either side
The wind pulling me into the overflowing water
Drowning overwhelming the end of my life
Is this my time?
Running to my rescue
He dives in the water and struggles to me
I grab a cow’s tail
Which this angry dog sat atop of and bit at me
Swiftly thrusting a knife into the dog
He suffocates the growl of the dog with blood
Killing him
Yet not enough time to avoid a bite from the anger flowing out of its teeth
Soon after, we reach Palm Beach
Relaxation flies through our bodies
Happiness to end this chaos
it’s finally over!
Weeks later, sickness falls upon my lover
It came out of nowhere
Unsuspected
Like a spontaneous shooting
The doctor came and exclaimed
“There’s no way to recover him. He’s dying.”
Desperate sadness jumped on my life. This is the end.
Anger changed him
I didn’t know who he was
After pointing a gun at me, I had to
I killed him
Now, as I sit under the cherry blossom tree.
I am sad
But I know
My third love was the charm of forever.
From the book "Their Eyes Were Watching God"
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