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Well if things couldn't get any worse . . .

I'm scared. I just left a message for my best friend saying I was sick of having to be at there for her when she has problems with guys, it's as though I don't either.
I have my own share of guy problems and they are not as easily fixed as her's are.

I am really sorry about what happened when she introduced me to "him." I couldn't help that I fell for him and she seemed to drift away from him. Damnit why doesn't she understand I don't want the guy she currently likes I think. I just consider him a really really good friend because I can talk to him about anything that makes me feel down and he can cheer me up.

For the love of the Gods (Ra mostly) I wish the school holidays would end -Mum say's I should be happy for them because I won't have them very soon but I don't know- my life has seemed to go downhill in this last week of them. First it pouring down with rain on ANZAC day (Australia New Zealand Army Corps) and that bought back memories of my Grandad (who died when I was only 3 but who I still remember) and then I could only talk to a friend online who I hadn't talked to in a long time for a few minutes before I got a call from my Mum that my Great Grandma was in hospital because of another heart attack, so I had to go in and see her which I really didn't want to do as hospitals scare the begessus out of me -too many people die there- The next night I only got three and a half hours sleep because I spent the night at my friends place and was drinling a little alcohol so we didn't get to sleep until three am and I then woke up at half past six which was several hours (as in over four) before my friends woke up, and as they where both asleep I took my friend's little sister to school which I suppose was actually a good thing, but by the time I got back I was sooo cold and the bed had no more room so I had to suffer it out. It also started raining again that day and I had to go back to the hospital again.

Oh Ra! The Formal! I now have to ask my Dad to buy the material for my formal dress so Mum can make it. It is going to be just gorgeous all Black and crimson with a corset as well. *sighs* Well now I have to go about loosing weigh so I actually look good in it. So it's swimming and walking constantly for the next month and a half. Oh and soccer and training and hopefully dancing as well if Mum can get off her butt and actually decide to go to the classes she was going to.

*sighs* I really must be getting to bed 12:49am is not a time my Mother thinks is an acceptable time to go to bed but as she forgot to inform me before she went to sleep that I could go online.

Chocolate to everyone,
Smiles to some,
Hugs to a few,
And kisses to only one.

Always and Forever

KITTEN =^-^=

P.S.
Steph your poem was simply amazing, it bught tears to my eyes.