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mmhhmmm. Now that I have ur attention....

I failed for the first time in English. The teacher only took three grades and I just didnt turn one of them in.So I got a 60. stressed My mother found out bc if u fail, the progress report gets sent home. rolleyes
So she found out rite?

and now, I'm grounded untill god knows when gonk

I have to use the comp at skool wink

AND...she wont let me go riding, which happens to be the only reson I'm still alive bc I am Actlly suicidal. And a cutter. And now, I keep watching myself tear myself to shreds and I feel helpless....or perhaps hopeless...or maybe jjust both. I'm just super depressed

I think, after so many years of having to live with this woman controlling my life and messing it up for me at every turn, she's finally broken my spirit.

I hope she dies painfully
And yes, thatis a terrible thing to say, but...It's how I feel. I really hate my family.