Well today's Friday, June 2nd, 2006...Think about it, in 4 days people say something drastic's about to happen, I'll be mourning for the departure of my lover still I fear sweatdrop
Yes, Friday, the day I've actually been looking forward to since we initially planned a movie night...just us...lovers, on date night at a movie theater, one of the most cliche things in the world...but sometimes, you can't beat something cliche....
Sadly, she's not really looking forward to it now, she can't look forward to much of anything because of moving...I just wish I could help her more, but once again I shall prove myself useless stare
[sigh] but I can't let it get me down too badly, I'm just so...edgy lately, it's quite bothersome...I need this day...with her, and just her...but...but now I guess it's all up to her to make it the day I need, and by the way we've been acting lately, I just don't know anymore...
My worst fear in the world...right now, that number one fear which would drive me to a point past suicidal...would be for it to end...I guess I just want to let everyone know...because it is...I love Carla with all my heart and soul, I've put so much into this love, that it's keeping me stable...obesession? probably...but I guess I can't help it...
My mind's in the sense that her and I are perfect for each other...which only feeds this love driven "obsession" more...but I like to believe I'm not obsessed...
Looking out the window I see it's raining...it reminds me of myself sometimes, with no exact path to go, just spontaneously dropping wherever, it makes me think of the billions of people in the world, and how lucky I was to find that one person...who could bring me so much happiness, warmth to my heart, who could love me back...
So here I sit...thinking...trying to get out of this depressing/sad mood...it'll drive me insane guys, one day...you just watch 3nodding
Justin...
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Maybe if your life was a living paradox, you could be able to understand my words...If maybe you could see the other side of your sick, twisted world, you could understand my words...maybe if you cared you could understand my words....
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And by Full House's standards, I still love you. xp