Haven't updated in a while...
Nothing much has happened really. My second month aniversary with my BF passed this Friday. He got me flowers! I felt so embarrassed because I hadn't expected anything and hadn't had anything for him myself. I'm also saddened though, I had hoped for them to last a bit longer than a couple of days, the red one is wilting already.
Today I was speaking to him on MSN and I somehow felt detached from him... we were trying to think of something to do with the little money (or wrather none) and he asked me whether or not I was tired of him. I immediately answered no, because I love him dearly but I could hardly stop myself from saying I'm tired of his indecisive attitude like he was some lone stranger, I usually am able to hear his voice in my head saying the words I read of what he says but I couldn't and he seemed just one of my friends I talk to online.
I don't know what's wrong but it just got me depressed and I thought maybe he'd like us to break up. That he wanted to act the b*****d that I know he isn't... like he's cold and distant and I dunno... it just made me think maybe he was bored of me. Maybe that's what he was implying.
Saphira Blackheart · Mon Jun 05, 2006 @ 05:33am · 0 Comments |