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All i do is work on me i neva really worry about anyone eles cause why should i people neva give adamn about me. ok i have some friends and family that'll watch out fa me an i thank them fa it even though i'll neva ask fa their help it jus makes me feel like less of a man.
it feels like everything is comin down to the wire fa me...... u know pick now or suffer later i can't descide.
theres this person (again no names will be mentioned) that made me so mad my hands shake, my nose rinkles, my voice deepens, an i feel so mad that a certin part of me feels releasted, feels free, a part of me that i fear.I herd a voice in my head one day ( i know that jus sounds crazy) that screamed scream "RELEASE ME" i looked around an know one was around me i start trimblin everytime i think about it but i thought about it deeply an i know who it is. It's ME. I restrain myself so i don't do anything that i might regret, but i try ta live with no regrets so its like "i'll do wat i wont how i wont know matter wat" so why do i fear that side of me?
Theres like 3 sides of me. neutral Normal were i don't really do anything but jus be me. Where i'm calm, relaxed were i'm not smilin but not grounin. And theres my Heartless side twisted , that jus don't give a ******** about nothin that loves violance, loves ta fight loves ta be mad and that loves ta see everyone suffer. And than theres my Nice side. biggrin You know i nice guy is well thats it............. scream I HATE THAT SIDE OF ME!! I HATE GOODY ******** TWO SHOESES!!! scream