[ mood : <img src="http://www.waterbead.net/nj%20floaties/sad.gif"> blue ] [ music : Phantom of the Opera - Trailer Soundtrack ]
Mmm...the trailer's so hot. I want to see it so bad. Come faster, next week. ; ;
Trish and Ru are here! Which,...is awesome. I love them both. However, I can't help but feel like a third leg with Tess, Trish, and Ru all together. They're such good friends... and they just talk and interact and refer to things that I'm not a part of. Which of course I can't hold them against: they deserve to be together and have fun finally, they've been such good friends for so long. It just inadvertantly reminds me what I'm not a part of, and probably never will be, and makes me feel all lonely and stuff. .___.
I don't think it's helped that I've had a weird day too. Ants invaded my laundry. They randomly appeared in my closet that night. And they appear to be phantom ants, since they vanished the next morning.
Though, my toilet DID finally flush. I'm not quite sure what was different. I suppose 1 out of every 10 flushes is a proper one. :shrug:
And I've begin to question my skills as a concept artist/illustrator as of late. AM I rehashing the same ideas over and over again? .___. I mean, I can't really show my newest stuff as evidence. I've been experimenting in many new genres, yet I... I don't know for sure anymore. I try so hard to do something new or make sure it doesn't look like something else, but I fail. It looks different to -me-, and -I- think it's different. But I see it through artist eyes: I know whats going on in my head, so it's clear to ME what's different. If I can't get OTHER people to see that though, I'm not doing my job. :sigh: I dunno. Maybe I'm just thinking too much because I'm blue.
I can't wait to get my place all set up. It's still a bit empty w/ no furniture and stuff. But hopefully sometime soon I'll get my bed set up and then I can start building around it. It's kind of all waiting for that first. >.<
nightmare jester · Sat Dec 18, 2004 @ 05:08am · 4 Comments |