i can never and will never ******** win everyone is so ******** confusing i thought last night convo was so great and all but no its not i feel like i wanna blow my ******** head of or hang myself or cut my wrists anyways to die i thought this new ******** life would be so much better but its not its horrible andi hate it it hasnt changed people make me feel bad feel sad or feel like s**t and i cant help it i cant make everyone happy damn it what the ******** am i supose to do its like life just sucks who would ******** care if i died i dont think anyone gives a ******** about me anyways ******** i feel like i need to cut l;ike i want to but i dont know if i should.................. i hate life... and then katie says i should go with ben that wont happen ben told me along time ago he doesnt look at me that way and it would only hurt everyone anyways including her............ and also ben was there the whole time they were having a conversation about personal things and he said that chess was just trying to be nice so he wouldnt have anymore enimies or something and ben was there and it was all ******** up im not mad at him but still..............and everythign is just so hard everybody ******** keeps telling me there so ******** worried but i have trouble beliving them maybe the only way i will know is if for once i go threw with it.............................................
love or hate me as i am
sissi pie
yusukes_bed_slut · Wed Dec 22, 2004 @ 12:58am · 0 Comments |