everyone is ******** mad at me and hates me i cant ******** stop crying and everyone is saying and acusing me of likeing ben........i dont like him i realized i love matt and ********!!!!!! katie is pissed because i talk to him................ benzy doesnt belive me when i say i dont....................... just every6one hates me for one reason or another and i dont know what the hell i can do i love matt but i cant prove it what can i do im not ready to be in a damn relationship...................... last night i carved help in my wrist i think tonight im going to add a me i dont see why all this damn drama is happening to me i tried to do what me and ben talked about go with a happy smile and i made it until the end of lunch and i still stopped myself from crying but when benzy wouldnt belive me either it was to much and i couldnt handle it everyone is taking a s**t at my door and hating me i knew i was right when i told ben that if i put on a happy face then everyone would hate me after they stopped being afraid for me they treated me like i was a piece of s**t damn it i hate life and i think it sucks a** but what the hell can i do all my friends hate me and the one that does help me with problems everyone thinks i like him and hates me for that like im supose to drop him because what people assume is wrong he is my friend and only that and he makes me feel like im better than i think i am so ******** YOU ALL WHO DONT BELIVE ME HE IS ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!
Love or hate me as i am
sissi pie
yusukes_bed_slut · Wed Dec 22, 2004 @ 12:59am · 0 Comments |