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My Hell or Their's...I wonder
It used to be sweet and almost to the side of being sickening. They were so lovey dovey. Atleast she was.
Don't know who I'm talking about??
Well that's probably the best. It wouldn't interest you anyway. So why don't you skip this paragraph....
....what the heck, skip this whole thing and head on to the comics or the rest of your oh so perfect life, or whatever.
It wouldn't matter to me anyway since this is just a way to get it off my system.
It's sickening really watching the people you love pretend that they are in love with one another when they truly aren't. They're just lying towards themself and their whole enviroment.
They only keep with each other because out of neccisities or because of the convenient. I mean who else is going to fix dinner, clean you dirty clothes, or the ******** mess that you drag behind yourself.
If you don't want to deal with it, then just tune them out. They'll find a way to get back at you. I mean a plate or a glass isn't that expensive. It sure isn't when it's broken anyway.
It's the chills that grip me everytime they do that. Watching from afar is hard enoug but to be in the middle of it is just unbearable.
Sometimes I think that I can't take it anymore and want to end it all. Or try running away from home or something like that. They wouldn't care, atleast I don't think they would. I'm a trouble as it is anyway, I'll bet that they'll be dancing on the table or trowing a party when I'm gone. I mean I'm just a trouble anyway.
It's not fair. The thing is that even now I'm afraid to be apart of them, when I hate to be in the presence of them while they are at it again. Sometimes it feels as if I'm just air to them. Not there are at yet is. Invisible, soundless.
Something that you can slash through and hope that it doesn't get hurt, 'cause air doesn't hurt. But I do.
Wether physically or mentally I do hurt. From the inside never on the outside.
'Cause that would make me seem vulnerable. And you can never show any weaknesses. Or they'll exploit it and use it for their own dirty pleasures.
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