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ugh i am finding myself to be sooooo crazy tired today. the other night i couldn't sleep, not sure if it was a minor manic episode or if it's insomnia. and last night i didn't sleep a whole lot after getting to bed entirely too late.

on a very positive note i am officially the assistant manager at my shop, which was pretty much already the case but now it's like official and i got a small raise as well. this is something i am incredibly excited about! i also am going to be working my first shift at my second job soon, so i'm mostly looking forwards to that.

admittedly, i am finding myself super worried about how to manage everything because i literally struggle to balance my relationships with my friends, my time at work, the time i have to spend taking care of myself, caring for my cat, being involved with my family. it's really really really exhausting and i never feel like i am good enough.

everyone is always saying they miss me or they want to hang out, sometimes people get mad i am not available enough for them. i really miss my friends and i really try to make time for them all and to speak to them all. but honestly it's really difficult when i so tired and overwhelmed i want to cry.

i think my train of thought got away from me here sweatdrop redface but that's fine i guess i needed to get it out of my system anyhow. out into the void is just as good i suppose. i hope everything calms down and balances out and i stop being so tired soon.