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There are so many mean things that I could say. But I'm not that person anymore. I don't like to hurt others at all. I try to be a better person, to show more emotional maturity and regulation and control than I have in the past. Right now it's really hard though. I want to be left alone by someone, but they desperately want to fix things. Even if I were open to that, it wouldn't be possible anymore. After all I don't think I can forgive the slut shaming, the treatment I am receiving. I can't believe this person when they say they care for me or want to be friends because their actions have seriously proven that is not the case.

I'm so glad my friends are being supportive and loving towards me. But it's really hard. I just want to cry and crawl into a hole and never see or speak to anyone ever again. I am a person with feelings. Feelings of hurt and being a little scared, feelings of frustration. I just try to be kind and good, and it's never enough.

I want this whole situation to just stop, I want to go back to living my life peacfully.