I know better than to try to observe life as you take place in it and I know how much it would do to try to either way. Lately though, I don't get it. I should be happy, thrilled, excited, spastic and robust with energy @_@ Nope. Maybe it's just last night. I HATE being judged, esspecially by people who don't know you and never will. Yes, even good judgements I can't really take...but it's not as bad as someone saying trash about you.
Should give them their own treatment! Should just kick their a**...blah. Internet -_-; And I laugh at you idiots who say "arguing over the internet is lame," because the next time you argue over a phone...you're lame, then.
I also feel....singled out now c_c I can't really explain it. I feel bad and probably should admit this to someone who has more rights to know than anyone else. But I don't want to drag them down in my junk. I rather bring them nothing but happiness and smiles as much as I can, and avoid the bull x_x
Yes, I should probably explain my feelings about everything to them. But maybe I should hold back...keep my things completely to me. I can see it now, dying of old age all alone, some old woman just huddled in a corner of a house e_e I should be happy, but something is defeating that right now.
I need help.....
Ayane Akutama · Sun Aug 20, 2006 @ 01:43pm · 0 Comments |