Wow, today has been a hell of a rollercoaster. I have been so streached from school, and now problems with friends, it is streaching it more. I dont know how long my mind can be pulled before snapping. This day has been hell in a basket, I mean no matter what I do it seems to slap me in the face and laugh at me. At all my attempts to help others I seem to just be hurting myself. I mean really, but I am not going to let it get teh best of me no matter how many stab wounds I create or how many hits in the fact of life I get. I am going to keep up my fight until the day I die for me and everybody around me to live happier. It is a goal that is impossible, unreachable. But I will do it some way in another i will. There has to be ways to do many things in life that doesn't give instructions on how. I mean there has to be many things. Up until last night I didn't know what to call myself, but I think by now I ccan call myself a idealist. I mean that might mean a person with big ideas...bigger then ones that she can hold...but I can do it. I am going to achieve that goal...at least to an extent I can do for my life time adn hopefully others like me will stand up for it andn ot let themselves be sucked in by this going with the group stuff. I mean people show be who they are and people should be the person they want to be no matter the concinquence on themselves. I mean it just bothers me. Oh by the way when I say be anybody i ment anybody with a moral standing I mean there are others that be who they want to be but throw out moral standing with themselves and they turn to a person of darkness and hurtfulll decisions towards people. They cause suffering just as much as the people that want others to be the same. Well i am done making this entry. I just warn those that are about to be in school. or that were homeschooled; watch out...the world is cruel and it hurts a lot on the soiceties problems. Anyway that is all for htis entry.
~*Reachel*~
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Well, I just really want to write how I feel at the moment. Not really for propaganda but mostly for just the show of my feelings and such.
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